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Friday, May 25, 2007
one-day-depression syndrome
i know this wouldn't be the last time i would feel this kind of emotion, as a matter of fact i seemed to have an affinity to it. i dunno what's been up with me lately. i just feel incredibly lonely, making me go into depression. i feel like i'm gonna cry any minute.
things between me and my dad haven't been exactly been back to the way they used to be. i mean, yeah we have made up, but i am still a bit mad at him, actually it's more of resentment than anger. the whole time during dinner, i didn't say a word, praying so much that my dad won't talk to me about negative things (w/c never fails to ruin my appetite), and when he talks to me i only talk back in one-word-answers. it felt weird not talking to him bcoz we used to be so chummy-chummy, talking about random things while eating. i felt so guilty being indifferent to him.
and finally i couldn't hold back the tears i have been keeping at bay. i felt miraculously better after that. it's as if that was all i needed to be set free from all those shitty feelings i've been having for the past few days...well, i really hope i continue feeling better, then i wouldn't have to leave the forum...
手越祐也の彼女@9:33 PM
as usual i missed foruming, was out all day and it was late when i got home and i was too drained to do anything else. went to carcar yesterday for a free medical and dental mission with my two bestfriends. and once again, i woke up late! despite setting the alarm on my phone and ipod, i woke up an hour and a half later than i was supposed to! and almost backed out from the appointment, but decided on the last minute to heave myself up from the bed, and do everything in speed! another feat for a slowpoke like me. even missed breakfast just to get there. altho it wasn't really a tiring event, we were all knocked out in the van, sleeping despite the uncomfortable positions, w/c resulted to me waking up with a sore neck and a headache! and worse, now i feel like i'm coming down with flu -__-
it was so nice of the organizers to gives us tokens (and money) as thank-you for our services. my bestfriends had to take a day off from work to be there, and me sacrificing one OL day, hehe...with the money we went out and bought groceries. my bestfriend cha went home with me. we sort of like had a mango fest, making shakes and icebox cakes, putting our ripe mangoes to good use. i wanted to eat ahead but i know they'll kill me, haha! i had to wait till sunday. i'm bringing all that stuff at cha's place where she's setting up her own free dental mission (dragging both me and palmer into it). it's kinda nice to do something worthwhile with my time...
being with them who are already professionals, makes me hopeful. they already have plans of putting up their own clinic, and are waiting for me to join them. it's so nice having people offer you work. so far, i've had 3 invitations already, but of course working with friends is the most tempting one. not to mention my dad's plans of putting up a clinic for me at the orphanage, and the possibility of me practicing (even part-time) in bacolod. thinking about all that makes me wanna get the board exams over and done with asap...
they are also currently taking up ortho classes, and cha wants me to be her patient! i have always wanted to have ortho therapy to cure my bimaxillary protrusion, and it's being handed to me free! (well, i do have to pay for the materials, but we all know having braces does not come cheap, esp in my particular case). altho it would be a few months from now, i'm already excited. i keep on visualizing all those before-and-after photos in our ortho books (esp that kid that turned from nerdy to hunky!!!)
it also got me thinking of my plans after the board exams. what should i specialize in? should i take up ortho classes too (since people love having braces)? or pedo classes (but i'm kinda short-tempered when it comes to handling kids)? or enter PGH and master the art of surgery (i'm starting to love tooth extractions since i discovered the wonders of the cowhorn forceps aka my new bestfriend)? or proceed to medicine (it's sort of nice to be able to render free services to ppl who can't afford even simple check-ups)? i certainly haven't decided yet...but before that i have to face my fears first (esp my prof i keep on having nightmares about). have to go to the new campus of my old school. they have just transferred from the city, to the more rural area in the north...they say it looks like a mall, haha!
me and my dad made up after 3 days of cold war...as if i can ever stay mad at him for long...he is my dad after all, and after a few days, the fight is forgotten and i end up missing him...i am a daddy's girl, and it's just really hard not to be talking to him...
i dunno why i feel depressed lately--a mixture of disappointment, being left-out, feeling superfluous...and it makes me sad...it's like i'm putting myself out there but no one really cares. maybe it's a sign that it's time for me to leave. i don't wanna go but i feel like i'm being pushed to it. i mean what's the point in staying when i'm no longer happy?...sigh, i hope this is just pms, but if it continues, i guess i really have to say goodbye...
手越祐也の彼女@2:17 PM
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
i love to sleep it's the only time i float into nothingness no sadness to consume me no happiness to overwhelm me no norms to conform to a place where time is but a concept reality is bent and will is just waiting to happen a place where everything's twisted and i'm ok with that coz being awake and facing the truth sometimes sucks...
手越祐也の彼女@5:12 AM
i originally wasn't planning to tell you about my day, since it was an unpleasant one, but my OC side keeps bugging me to do it, and i'd best do it or i would've tossed and turned in bed, berating myself why the heck i didn't...
woke up (well, it was more of being woken up) at the wrong side of the bed. literal translation-i got scolded so early in the morning. yeah, that's right, we had dad's sermon for breakfast, and i'm telling you it wasn't the least bit tasty. if ever you wanna be woken up for sure, and the alarm clock doesn't do the trick, i suggest you do what my dad does, simply look for the biggest stones you can find, and hurl it at the roof, makes sure it's the part where your kids' rooms are. it always works. sheesh, he sure does have a violent streak...
normally i would have just laughed it off, but this morning i was too cranky and pissed to even take it lightly. i mean, he has gone too far. and so off he goes, telling us off for about an hour. i try to think of a very distant place where i am numbed from the hurtful words thrown at us. i hated him. if only i could stop being a burden, i would have aeons ago. i never wanted my life to be like this, to live so cautiously, always mindful of my actions, just so we could be worthy children. i bet he doesn't even have a clue what runs inside our heads. bcoz it has always been just his side of the story.
i mean, are we just supposed to sit there and listen, having no right to defend ourselves bcoz we are JUST his children? it's a surprise i have never thought of running away from home bcoz there are just times when i really can't stand him...or like give up on life. he says he's disappointed, if only he had a choice to choose family...very hurtful words.
but i didn't want this life either. i didn't like being in a broken family, i can't even see my mom whenever i wanted to. and having to adjust with a stepmom, this is very hard for me. we ourselves are broken. maybe this is why i don't have any self-esteem at all, i feel like i'm never good enough for anyone, like i'm worthless...
手越祐也の彼女@3:34 AM
the chain
“I am waiting for some one who blows through the soul like wind, who touches with eyes, who makes me forget myself, who listens to me when I am silent….”I can hear it no more. These are the words I listen to everyday and I am sick of them for they cut my heart like a knife but she is unaware of that. She keeps on talking like that, even if she knew it hurts me she would still keep on talking like that, I think I am sure of it.You must be thinking who is the one she is talking about, well, that’s what I wonder about too. I don’t know who he is and tell you what, neither does she. May be that’s why he is so perfect for he is unknown. He is in her dreams, in her eyes wherever she looks. He is not for real and that’s why he is perfect. He is perfect because she made him perfect. She gave him all the qualities that she could ever think of and now she is looking for him. She is waiting for him to creep onto her like fresh morning, to fell on her like winter sunshine. She is sure she will find him and I know she wont. She has raised him so high that now she herself cant reach him. This is the problem with us that we create problems for ourselves. We fill some one with all the good things in the world, raise him so high, then one slight mistake and its us who fall down. He remains up there, looking at us and laughing. I hate such people but I don’t hate her, and I don’t hate him for this. Just don’t ask me why, she is not my sunshine, she is not my dream, she is there for me in real. Well, if you must ask; she is the one who doesn’t look at you and still makes you dream of her eyes. I don’t exist for her. It’s been a long time that I have been standing in front of her. She is looking way above my head and far away. That’s why she cant see me, I am standing too close and too in front. But I don’t want to leave, if I leave now she would never know that. I want to stay because if she finds ‘him’ and tries to rush towards him, she will have to remove me first. Then she will know I was there, all the time, and that’s what I want. I wish that she finds him; I am waiting to be removed. I used to talk to her, and she to me, but that was nothing. My words were going nowhere and so was I. Then I let the silence do that talking but it didn’t seem to work either. May be she cant hear it or may be she doesn’t want to hear it. Or may be its because I am always there. She doesn’t have to look for me, to wait for me. I am always there, right in front of her; and she is looking for someone who is not there. The problem is that we are self seeking. We want to get what we want to get, we want to look where we want to look. We don’t want to look for the one coming for us but at the one who is running away from us. I am one of them; I am running after the one who is running after another one. This is the way it goes, this is the whole chain.All that she wants is, for me to follow. She wants me to do something and she herself is doing completely the otherwise. She stops when I go on. She walks on when I wish her to stop, she runs when I walk, she flies when I run, she disappears when I fly, and she reappears when I disappear. But now I am done with it all, now I am just going to stand in front of he and that’s it. While he is still up there, far away somewhere in the skies. That’s where I think he is. But I really do wish him to come down, come in front of her. Because if he appears then she will stay and if she stays then I stay as well. Well, I told you it’s a chain, didn’t I? One day she did find him. He was the one. It was too soon and too unexpected. She couldn’t wait to talk to him. He ‘looked’ perfect, just like a prince coming straight out of he dreams. I was glad she found him. Now was the time for me to make an exit, to be realized. She rushed towards him, but…what is this? She is leaving him, she is not staying with her. He is gone and she comes back. Why? Because his voice was too heavy for his face, or in her words, “he didn’t sound good.”And here I am, still running, still standing. And she, still dreaming. And today, all my prayers come true. She has found him, this time for real. She is lucky isn’t she? She has found ‘him’ twice. He looks good, and sounds good as well.She talks to him and, “Yes, he is the one, same as in my dreams. He walks in the wind, wind in the willows, willows in my eyes, my eyes on him.” She tells him all about her dreams, and the image that she had in her mind, “….I think I have found him now….”, she tries to tell him.And then goes the chain again, he cuts her speech and says, “ I am glad you have found him, but I am still waiting for some one, who blows through the soul like wind, who touches with eyes, who makes me….” I can hear it no more.
------- A.S., i'm forever ur fan...
手越祐也の彼女@2:32 AM
50 things YOU learn from kdramas...
this never fails to crack me up...an oldie but a goodie... ----------------
1) Hot, rich, younger men love fat, older vulgar women.
2) If you have a best guy friend, he is in love with you. And secretly you are too.
3) You and your boyfriend will always playfully chase each other on an ice rink, at the beach, or in the leaves. And you'll laugh for no reason and your boyfriend will hit you "playfully" but the force of his push will have you flying across the room. But it's okay. Cuz you're still laughing like a crazy person.
4) Brothers/cousin/uncles-newphews will always love the same girl.
5) You're allowed to make u-turns wherever you want in Korea. And there is never traffic on the side you want to u-turn to.
6) There is a super quick payment device that allows you to pay a bill quickly enough for a guy to run immediately out of a restaurant after his angry girlfriend storms out.
7) Everyone has cancer.
8) If you're sick, all you need is an IV to make you feel lots better.
9) There is vomit and urine all over Seoul at nights.
10) Fighting at a pojangmacha with a random stranger is merely part of a normal night's event.
11) Soju must cost 10 cents. Everyone drinks it everyday all the time, especially the poor people.
12) If you're rich, you're a jerk.
13) If you're poor, you're an angel.
14) Women sleep and wake up with a full set of makeup on.
15) You're not studying hard enough unless you get a nosebleed.
16) If you have a nosebleed, you most definately have cancer. And you have no money to pay for the surgery that will save your life. And your liver is missing. We're not sure where it went, but it's making your cancer progress faster.
17) If you work in a sool jeep, you have massively curly hair and wear flashy colors from the early 90's.
18) You always order orange juice or coffee at a cafe. And you never drink it. EVER. (they drink almost as much as soju)
19) You will always call your boyfriend by his job title. Or simply sunbaenim. Never his name. Never. He doesn't have one.
20) If you TRULY love each other, you must die together in the end. Frozen outside instead of finding shelter like sane people. Just frozen….
21) You go to America you come back miraculously successful. You go to England you come back amazingly fashionable. You stay in Korea and the only thing that changes is your hairstyle.
22) And if you come back with no apparent reason then it's because you have cancer.
23) Everyone always goes to the same hospital no matter where they are.
24) If you stand out in the rain for more than five minutes, you'll end up with a fever and vertigo and people will rush you to the hospital to get some magic IV. And instead of taking an ambulance or driving they'll race you on their back.
25) Even if you're poor and can't eat, you never wear the same clothes twice.
26) If you play a poor kid, you always have dirt on your face and your hair is always messy.
27) If you're saving someone from being hit from a car, you'll push them out of the way and wait for the car to hit you instead. Couldn't be more true, they're like a deer in headlights
28) Everyone has a long lost sister/brother/twin. Usually one they didn't know about.
29) If you don't want to answer your phone, you can't just turn it off. The battery needs to be taken out.
30) All korean men can drink hard, smoke long, sing well and play piano. Usually all at the same time. And at the same restaurant that has a piano that they let anyone use.
31) If you're in a relationship, you must at one point leave and have your lover tearfully come RIGHT before you board the plane (vice versa applies as well. You can be the chaser). 60% of the time you see each other, the other 40% you're roaming around in circles and pass each other about six times, but miraculously never see them.
32) If you're getting off a plane, you're ALWAYS wearing sunglasses. ALWAYS.
33) All guys wear hideous tracksuits zipped up to their neck. Even if all they're doing is jumproping.
34) Girls will always storm off because they're mad and the guy will stoically grab them by the arm and swing them back- and by magic, not dislocate their shoulders.
35) Guys always look like they're 6 feet tall, even if they're only 5'10. Thank you camera angles.
36) Guys like to wear foundation, eyeliner and sometimes a smudge of lipliner.
37) You always get stuck in an elevator with someone who makes you feel uncomfortable. Even if there are six different elevators, you'll always be stuck in the same one with that bastard you hate (or just fought with).
38) Unless you're fabulously rich, your in-laws will always hate you
39) So will your sister-in-law.
40) Your brother-in-law might be pining away for you.
41) There are only 2 ways to kiss. You either press your lips against theirs with your mouth completely shut, and just press away for a very long and uncomfortable time. OR you devour the other person and suck out their soul. In both instances, the world spins.
42) A guy will always get the right size ring, even if you've never held hands.
43) People stare off into space and ponder a lot. They'll just stop in the middle of the road and watch a leaf on a tree for a good three minutes, and just ponder.
44) You'll get pregnant the first time you have sex.
45) You'll get pregnant if he kisses you on the forehead.
46) Hell- you'll get pregnant if you hold hands.
47) If you overcome great obstacles to be together, one of you must die. Probably due to cancer.
48) One korean man can kick the butts of 6 gangstas. Especially when they all stand in a circle and attack the guy one by one. Then when each of them get their butts OWNED, they wise up and attack the guy at the same time. Then the guy will get pulverized and bleed out onto the dusty concrete floor of the empty warehouse they've found to fight in. There will be a fire in a trashcan somewhere. And the girl will have watched this the entire time, screaming in horror. Instead of calling 119, she'll just watch and cry. But it's okay. Cuz the next day the guy will be fine with a few random bandages and a few face scars. But never a black eye.
49) It ain't a real fight unless the gangstas fight dirty with a stick or switchblade.
50) If you study in the states (perferably Harvard), you are one of the top students and can speak perfect English (as assumed by the reactions of those around you). Why the rest of the world OUTSIDE of the TV can't understand a single word uttered out of your melodramatic mouth is beyond me.
手越祐也の彼女@2:14 AM
Sunday, May 20, 2007
as predicted i woke up minutes before noon, did all the house chores my parents told us to do (written on the blackboard). i wanted everything to be settled before i start losing my mind over daydreams. as i am walking around i have this vision of shun oguri and me (as tsukushi), and my hands on his butt!!! what the heck?! i swear i have the weirdest dreams, and altho i was wishing for a different person, i was nonetheless giddy to have shun in my dreams, but what's with me touching his butt?! i would have preferred a more romantic scene, but oh well, since i can't do lucid dreaming...i would suddenly laugh everytime that scene plays in my mind, haha!
now that i am done with 'bad family'...i'm moving on to HYD (since i didn't initially wanna watch it bcoz i didn't like jun, and it's not aired here in cebu) for my shun fix, and 'himitsu no hanazono' (recommended by marga) for my kanata fix...i'm not ready to venture on yamapi yet :P
手越祐也の彼女@3:19 PM
sleep -___-
aigoo, i am so drained! i feel like my eyes would fall from their sockets...mea culpa! i did a 'bad family' marathon, went ahead and finished episodes 11 till 16 all in a day. so tired but smiling, the feeling from watching it was *______* i love it!!! it's the first time i ever saw a kdrama not based on romantic love but is more on family. there are actually a lot of morals to learn from it. in the end, i wish i had a family as strong, happy, and hopeful like them. oh yeah! it would be nice to have heechul as my oppa! haha, that alien of a boy! and to have a dongsaeng like narim. gma is doing the right thing airing it. i don't mind watching it for the second time.
sigh, since my goal (for the night) has been reached, i can now sleep with reckless abandon on my bed in my little room, hehe. i have the next days to worry about all the other dramas i wanna watch, haha! uh-oh, i guess i'll be starting to get hooked on j-guys in the following days. better take it slooooow...
since the free clinic was cancelled, i can sleep as late as i want.
off to bed! *massages head*
手越祐也の彼女@3:07 AM
Friday, May 18, 2007
suspended
ah, yes...my title says it all. it is true since i have been OL frequently, i still haven't got the conviction to be more available. although today i feel so compelled not to be lazy and actually write again (haha, u must think it's a hassle for me, but it's just the way i am, don't get me wrong, i like having bloggie around). i get a chance to put all the cards on the table and stare down at myself.
what have i been up to lately? oh, just this and that, nothing grand. well, nothing exciting (except for suju stuff, ofcorz) seems to be happening if ur a bum like me. so the best i can do is just this. being always around. making the most out of it, since i know it won't last. change is the only permanent thing in this world. soon, i have to let go of being a frequent forumer for the reviews and licensure exams come december.
days ago, the neighbors have been harvesting the mangoes at the next lot. remember those times when i use to complain how my nose would hurt from all that spraying. well, i almost forgot that we had our share of that since one of the trees are growing on our lot. so i was left with sacks of mangoes to sort out -__- soon enough, i was staring at a sea of magoes. at least i didn't suffer for nothing, did i tell u mangoes are my faves??? good thing i didn't go ahead and set fire on those trees months ago, hehe...since it's too much for us and the three other families inside our compound, my dad is taking most of it to the orphanage to sell.
sigh, there is one thing that's making me uneasy. i have been dreading doing something important. it's just too distasteful for me to keep on putting it off. but i know i have to face it, despite all my avoidance. I HAVE TO! this concerns my future! i just hope my dad doesn't have to know this or i'll be dead than dead meat!!! huhu, the mere thought of it wants to make me cry. i wish i could just go on without doing it, but it just can't be. I HAVE TO. this thing is really starting to wear me down. i don't even wanna think about it coz it depresses me. it keeps on haunting me. i can't even describe how scared i am of it TT_TT
the elections are over, and for the third time, i wasn't able to vote. i feel regretful but i don't really want to explain myself. i just hope no one voted in my absence -__-
i have been watching 'bad family' lately. i am really loving this drama. i love the story and the characters (esp blonde heechul). there are those little moments that hits home. well, i just had to watch it since i'm sure it'll take gma a long while before finally airing it. by now i have been tired of waiting on the tv (ex. spring waltz on abs-cbn seems to take forever!!!). i really recommend this to other kdrama-lovers.
and i just have to add how i was spazzing like crazy while in the middle of watching the hollywood bowl on imbc days ago. watching it on livestream is really a tad bit more exciting than watching it on youtube. sadly, i wasn't able to see suju coz they performed at the opening -__- but thank god for epik high (tablo!!!), fly to the sky, boa, big bang, eru, etc etc. it still kept me alive after all those perfs courtesy of ajummas and ajusshis...
i dunno why i have been suddenly addicted to park bom (hence, my current bg music). although the big bang song is old, i still love it esp bom's voice. it's soooo good, reminds me of jojo. she has also made an anycall cf with hyori and lee junki, that's really big for someone who hasn't debuted yet. i just love her! i do hope she debut's already. i'm so looking forward to it.
snippets:
teukie oppa & kyuhyunnie, bogoshipo!
sigh, why did hotties james franco and topher grace have to die in spiderman3?
rewatched the tranporter 1 and 2 and flipped over (again) jason statham. he's so my type! haha!
shun oguri, i love uuuuuu!!!
kyaaaa! i wanna whack myself. i dunno a thing about maintenance. it has always been a weak point. babo, babo, babo...so pathetic -_-
oooh! i prematurely have to end this post. detective conan's on tv!
手越祐也の彼女@9:39 AM
Monday, May 7, 2007
back to the habit
this is the third time ever since i got back from vacation that i had woken up miraculously early, without the nagging of the alarm clock. it's a mystery to me, since i didn't use to be an early waker. well, i did have to constantly remind myself to put out the post lights as soon as my eyes could open. it would have been so nice to go back to sleep but by the time i do, i realize it's too late. so, while the forum is silent and assuming margalicious and queenerrific (hehe, suddenly there's this golden trio/late night shifters thing) are still in dreamland, i'd best spend it by going here to post something.
altho it's been days since i got back here in cebu, i couldn't find the inspiration (aka too lazy) to update my dear bloggie here about my life. i told u i'm more loyal to the forum! the bitterness of goodbyes have started to wear off until it is only but a trace. i guess not thinking about it too much does help. i occupy myself with other things too keep my mind from reverting to the sadness.
i decided to change the skin from the not-so-wide array of choices of ones they offer here since i'm still an idiot in preening up my blog. my blog's look could pass up as boring, drab, and lifeless with flying colors. i can only watch with dismay, then i try to get over it...
day's starting ok, since i woke up with cats' songs playing. i dunno y but i seem to be getting more into them since handsome boy and bae seulgi. in fact i have been singing cats and kara songs at the top of my lungs most of the night. i guess i was too piqued from having romanized lyrics. haha! told u i was shallow, small things make me hyper like this...
i have been OL most of the time since i got back. yeah, i missed bumming like this. it's so nice not having to worry about time. no wonder my eyes feel so weird, i stayed up until wee hours chatting with co-night shifters. yup! i am definitely back!
the hollywood bowl must have been over for hours. gosh! i cannot tell you how green i am with envy! lucky fans that have seen (and even talked to, and touched!) suju in real life!!! reading all those posts about their encounters with the boys is such a sweet torture!
手越祐也の彼女@10:27 AM
Welcome
you have stumbled upon my blog~ the chocoholic's refuge
feel free to wander around...
shout-outs are much appreciated :)
and one more thing,
this is my blog
if you don't like what you see
then GET LOST!
why are you here anyways?
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Hates
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>frying fish
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>my sensitive nose -_-
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>monthly periods
>backlogging
>chain letters
>exclusivity and all that shit
>backbiters and rumor-mongers
>being binbou -_-
>my full name
>multi-tasking
>arguments
>my brother XP
>delusional fangirls
>unwanted admirers/suitors/textmates (GRRRR!)
>Tegoshi and RyoTego haters
>blondes
>rumors/tabloids
Wishlist
>'MEMOIRS' philippine release
>TegoMass concert dvd
>a Coraline doll
>harry potter and the deathly hallows
>a series of unfortunate events (complete)
>more neil gaiman books
>the adventures of tin-tin
>my own dika
>new celphone
>jenga and twister games
>revel bars!!! *drools*
>body shop's olive oil
>maltese or yorkie
>electronic dictionary
>the nightmare before christmas merchandise
>JE merchandise
>okaneeeeee~
>lose weight overnight
>mole under left eye
>learn how to play violin/cello
>learn how to bake
>bungee jump
>vacation to japan, thailand, korea
>go to a NewS concert
>my own tegoshi yuya XD
>more ryotego fics
>tegoshi singing nino's niji
>watch:
-itteQ-tegoshi eps
-massu's 'musashi'
-pi's 'byakkotai'
-ie ga tooi-news epi
-kei's high school musical
-kei's 'nurse aoi'
-kisarazu cat's eye
-princess d
+ the nightmare before christmas + harry potter + romeo and juliet + city of angels + now and then + moulin rouge + chocolat + from hell + the neverending story + the labyrinth + a walk to remember + the chocolate factory (willy wonka and charlie versions) + the secret garden + snow white: a tale of terror + great expectations + don juan de marco + napoleon dynamite + sleepover + sleepy hollow + centerstage + the sisterhood of the travelling pants + tuck everlasting + what a girl wants + casper + bourne identity + ocean's eleven + mr. bean + the abyss + deep blue sea + ghost ship + titanic + jurassic park (1,2&3) + resident evil (1,2&3) + the land of the dead + the dawn of the dead + ella enchanted + shrek (1,2&3) + face off + con air + the x-files + coach carter + time machine + the land before time + mulan + hocus pocus + interview with a vampire + practical magic + princess diaries + miss congeniality + queen of the damned + romeo must die + the others + thumbelina + ever after + breakfast at tiffany's + gone with the wind + west side story + bridget joneses diary (1&2) + brokedown palace + darkness falls + valentine + the exorcism of emily rose + witches + the count of monte cristo + shakespeare in love + love actually + the man in the iron mask + four weddings and a funeral + the island of dr. moreau + narnia: the lion, the with, and the wardrobe + the cube + the mummy (1&2) + identity + beetlejuice + frequency + phenomenon + the guru + stardust + pursuit of happyness + stardust + coraline + the lake house + the sorcerer's apprentice +
+ the twins effect + the death curse + hero + the house of flying daggers + crouching tiger, hidden dragon + the curse of the golden flower + infernal affairs (1,2&3) + my sassy girl + il mare + the classic + a millionaire's first love + kawi + koma + the uninvited + vacation (dbsk) + 200 pounds beauty + jenny&juno + one missed call (1,2&3) + the phone + the eye + a tale of two sisters + nana + death note1&2 + six + shutter + lovely complex + kanojo to no tadashii asobikata + chinese odyssey + protege de la rose noire + house of fury + spy dad + diva ah-hey + chinese tall story + new police story + 6AM + ab-normal beauty + battle royale + wishing stairs + the red shoes + shissou/dead run + one missed call 2 + attack on the pin-up boys (suju's movie) + cinderella ni naritai + boys love + kurosagi the movie + calling you + L change the world + koizora + crows zero + cyborg girl + tada, kimi wo aishiteru + 4bia/phobia + phobia 2 + coming soon + liar game: the final stage +
BOOKS
+ harry potter (j.k. rowling) + series of unfortunate events (lemony snickett) + stories of eva luna (isabel allende) + daddy long legs (jean webster) + behind the attic wall (sylvia cassedy) + how stella got her groove back (terry mcmillan) + pet sematary (stephen king) + stardust & coraline (neil gaiman) + robert fulghum books + roald dahl + frances hodgson burnett + grimm brothers + hans christian andersen + memeoirs of a teenage amnesia (gabrielle zevin +)
BOOB TUBE
+ csi las vegas + criminal minds + gilmore girls + supernatural + house m.d. + oprah + will and grace + extreme makeover (home edition) + charmed + joan of arcadia + dark angel + tru calling + angel + monk + the pretender + moonlight + i survived a japanese game show +
<3DRAMAS
+ beautiful days + love letter + winter sonata + my name is kim sam soon + my sassy girl chun-hyang + sweet 18 + meteor garden1&2 + dbsk's banjun drama + full house + goong + hana yori dango + bad family + nobuta wo produce + proposal daisakusen + kurosagi + my boss my hero + dragon zakura + hana yori dango2 + 1 litre of tears + 1 litre of tears sp + gachi baka + papa to musume no nanokakan + hanazakari no kimitachi e + himitsu no hanazono + tsubasa no oreta tenshitachi - season 1 + tsubasa no oreta tenshitachi - season 2 + tantei gakuen Q + liar game + shabake + sore wa totsuzen, arashi no you ni + sugata sanshirou + yukan club + deru toko demashou + lost time life (kei's episode) + waraeru koi wa shitakunai + anego + kakure karakuri + car radio ga owareba + last friends + absolute boyfriend + what's up, fox? + binbou danshi + 14 sai no haha + code blue + ryusei no kizuna + atashinchi no danshi + koishite akuma + buzzer beat + guests of room zero (koyama's & shige's episodes) + orthros no inu + you're beautiful + hidarime tantei eye + troubleman + sunao ni narenakute + loss time life + hyoten +
ANIME
+ fushigi yuugi + master of mosquiton + monster rancher + doraemon + fruits basket + trigun + sugar sugar rune + alice academy + cardcaptor sakura + time quest + ranma 1/2 + lovecom + gravitation + black blood brothers + ouran high host club + yamato nadeshiko shichi henge (the wallflower) + howl's moving castle + spirited away + kimi ni todoke +
UNFAITHFUL
+ chad michael murray + vincent kartheiser + jensen ackles + wentworth miller + james franco + sean faris + joseph fiennes + ewan mcgregor + ethan hawke + drew fuller + christopher gorham + channing tatum + liam aiken + topher grace + dhani lennevald + brad renfro + ralph fiennes + nicolas cage + jason statham + hugh jackman + diego luna + adam garcia + david duchovny + enrique iglesias + will estes + colin firth + dougray scott + antonio sabato jr. + alex o'loughlin + luke grimes +
++ jang woohyuk (h.o.t.) + micky yoochun (dbsk) + kim junghoon + jo insung + lee sangwoo + lee junki + kim jihoon + im joohwan + brian joo (ftts) + tablo (epik high) + t.o.p. (big bang) + attack (trax) + jin taehwa (battle) + kim dongwan (shinhwa) + park jinwoo + kim hyeseong + hyunbin + jang geunseok + wonbin (f.t island) + jung yonghwa (cnblue)
+++ tegoshi yuya + shun oguri + hongo kanata + news + kenichi matsuyama + ryo nishikido (news) + kazunari ninomiya (arashi) + matsuda shota + matsuda ryuhei + kaname jun + yamapi (news)+ tatsuya fujiwara + mizushima hiro + tsubasa imai (t&t) + wakaba ryuuya + hiraoka yuuta + tsukamoto takashi + tamayama tetsuji + yonemura daijiro & yodogawa yoshihiro (question?) + arioka daiki & yamada ryousuke (hey!say!) + ohkura tadayoshi (k8) + nakamaru yuichi (kat-tun) + oshinari shugo + tamaki hiroshi + mukai osamu + koide keisuke + miura haruma + seto koji + nakayama yuma + inohara yoshihiko (v6) +
++++ vanness wu (f4) + edison chen + jay chou + kenny kwan (boyz) + daniel wu + stephen fung + ananda everingham + golf + ray macdonald +
+++++ john lloyd cruz + jc de vera + enchong dee + hideaki torio +
LOVE THE MUSIC OF...
+ the corrs + sarah mclachlan + shawn colvin + michelle branch + selena + mariah carey + lee sooyoung + jewel + aaliyah + craig david + jason mraz + josh groban + boa + dbsk + lene marlin + frou frou + enya + leann rimes + big bang + sung sikyung + sg wannabe + se7en + epik high + clazziquai + loveholic + sugababes + all saints + lara fabian + gregorian chant + vonda shepard + foofighters + green day + rachael lampa + bosson + linda ronstadt + the cranberries + the cardigans + india arie + seal + george michael + lighthouse family + sting + garbage + dc talk + duncan sheik + coldplay + jars of clay + blur + third eye blind + john mayer + fiona apple + spice girls + kelly clarkson + utada hikaru + 'd sound + jim croce + david foster + eric clapton + boyz 2 men + babyface + alison krauss + richard marx + the company + jose mari chan + martine mccutcheon + kathy troccoli + jj lin + dream + honeyz + foj + darius + maksim + aaa + haley bennett + perfume + teddy geiger + yui + shimizu shota + kato miliyah + jyongri + coraline soundtrack +
BEAUTIES
+ nicole kidman + charlize theron + sandra bullock + anne hathaway + alexis bledel + evan rachel wood + amanda bynes + alexa vega + rachel mcadams + uma thurman + leelee sobieski + eliza dushku + emily browning + emma watson + dakota fanning + annasophia robb + alicia morton + kate maberly + mia maestro + jennifer connelly + paz vega + emmanuelle chriqui + hilary duff + marisa tomei + helena bonham carter + amber tamblyn + julia stiles + meredith bishop + thora birch + jessica alba + kristin kreuk + sara paxton + monica keena + katie holmes + marley shelton + camilla bell + angelina jolie + milla jovovich + amanda seyfried +
++ choi jiwoo + song hyegyo + jeon jihyun + son yehjin + goo hyejin + park shinhye + go ara + han jimin + lee yeonhee + bae seulgi (the reds) + ayumi (sugar) + song jihyo + yoon eunhye (baby vox) + han chaeyoung + kim taehee + han jihye + park bom + park heebon (milk) + kim bomi (milk) + chaeyeon + nam sangmi + cats + kara + lina and sunday (csjh) + sunye (wg) + kim ah-jung + uhm hyunkyung + yoo hyunyoung + choi sooyoung + han gain + kim junghwa + go eunah + goo hyesun + jung ryeowon (chakra) + kang junghwa + so yihyun + jo jungrin + kim ok-bin + eunseong + min seohyeon +
+++ nakashima mika + aoi miyazaki + horikita maki + toda erika + aragaki yui + shida mirai + uno misako + ueto aya + ueno juri + kashii yu + ito misaki + maya miki + ayase haruka + karina + narumi riko + kato rosa + naka riisa + esumi makiko + ito yuna + mimura + leah dizon + kiritani mirei + aoi yu +
++++ twins + miriam yeung + angelica lee + jolin tsai + rainie yang + niki chow + race wong + yumiko cheng + isabella leong + joey yung + stephy tang + janice wei vidal + vivian hsu +
+++++ maja salvador + erich gonzales + vaness del moral + jennica garcia +
♥♥♥♥♥
