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Friday, April 20, 2007
good and bad, happy and sad
just when u think ur days cudn't get better, they turn for the worse!!! i'm sure most if not all of the peeps at sjphils has already known the tragedy that has recently befallen the sukira boys, shindong, and worst of all kyuhyun who suffered from broken bones and a bruised lung which made him have to use a ventilator to steady his breathing!!! poor kyuhyunnie, this is something grave...immediately, it reminded me of the accident involving heechul just months before...hmmm, suju seems to be accident-prone...no wonder i wasn't able to go OL at the netcafe the night it happened, i guess it was some kind of omen that something terrible was bound to happen, the next day i heard the news from queen... it's a kind of mixed emotion, i am happy bcoz today marked the one year existence of the forum that i hold so dear--sjphilippines, which i now consider as my second home, my refuge, despite still being worried about kyuhyun's state. i pray he gets better, and the same goes for teuk, hyuk, and shindong... well, that's just how life goes...it's a constant battle between good and evil, an everyday yin and yang, where ppl get happy and sad...c'est la vie...i know that after all these rain, the sun will definitely shine...so i'm staying strong amidst the storm and the neverending unfortunate events...i know life is not that cruel, and that very soon, the wheels will turn in my favor... but still i can't help feeling low, bcoz the forum is in a kind of depressed state bcoz of kyuhyun...not to mention that the hot weather is becoming more and more unbearable as days go by...i'm constantly bathing in my own sweat, i feel like i'm gonna burst up in flames anytime...and pag-asa says it's gonna get hotter in may...oh lord, i dunno how much more i can take.
手越祐也の彼女@9:00 PM
Monday, April 16, 2007
hiatus
i missed blogging so very much! i swear if only i had a laptop with me i'd be updating every single day. but as predicted, since i got here in bacolod i've been online very seldom, twice in two weeks to be exact--a very far cry from when i was in cebu. i used to be online every single day. i admit having time off from the computer has its good sides, but i still would really prefer the opposite. i did however had a valid reason for it on the first week. i keep telling myself it was my way of fasting for the holy week that has passed. fasting need not only apply on food, but also on other things. and for me it was quite a sacrifice to be kept away from the forum and going online. besides, the netcafes at our place is crappy, whether it be the connection, or the ppl working on the cafes (aka crappy service) whatever they are called. this makes me wish i'm back in cebu, the only time when i wanted to be there.
it makes me sad that once again i am lost with all that's happened. i am so behind! one of the things i hate with passion, but no one to blame but moi. i know i can't always do the things i want, i just comfort myself with the saying that 'everything happens for a reason', bcoz every so often it proves true, even tho i don't like it and don't see why, i know it was all written in the stars, no matter how little, petty, or insignificant things are. in that way of thinking, i don't tend to react so adversely, be a little mature in handling and just let things be. so with all that said (sigh, hehe), i can actually babble on other things now.
argh! my mind is suddenly so disorganized--so many things in my head that i wanna write about i end up not knowing what to talk about first T_T a week ago i visited my bestfriends, the only ones left in our little hometown...i saw the twins ryu and rei kawai, they're so cute!!! too bad i didn't see their mommy whom i've heard went back to japan last month to resume working...too bad, i really missed her...it was a good thing my other friend was home, and i guess she is getting serious with her significant other. makes me inevitably think of my own lovelife's status. it doesn't seem to bother me but when surrounded with couples, i really cudn't help thinking it over. but i really don't wanna be in a relationship right now. i'm very fine and happy with hae as it is!!! one thing my family (esp my dad) cudn't possibly understand.
this morning, i woke up early (for the very first time since i got here) to take a walk in the seaside with my grandmother, something i haven't done in years. it made me feel good to actually see the sun rising, feel the saltwater flowing at my feet. i know not many ppl can have this kind on luxury, but i'm very fortunate. as they say, the best things in life are free, and i am happy to be strolling with my grandma whom i love so much. who knows when i can do these things again? maybe it wud take another year...being surrounded with nature really does clear one's head, which i realized earlier. it's just something so soothing, even a kind of much-needed therapy for paranoids like me.
i actually dunno what state i am in right now, if i were to sum up everything that's happened during this vacation. sure i am happy to be home, after being away for the longest time, missing my family and friends, etc. but i have some disappointments too (w/c i'm trying to put behind bcoz i am so tired of stressing over things that i have no control over). but i have realized that i need not be doing anything all the time, or going to this and that, bcoz what i have really been missing is living here. i'm learning to be just appreciative of everything, everyday, and also i don't wanna be holding a grudge on anyone (even tho they had hurt me, and are continually doing so). it's just so tiring and draining, and i just don't wanna be this sad, bitter person. sigh, happiness sure is a hard to find even tho it's everywhere...ah, another irony of life.
i told my dad i'm gonna be here for only 2 weeks and it lasts this wednesday, but i found out i don't wanna go back to cebu yet. after all those years of living there, i still cudn't feel comfortable. everytym i go to bacolod for a vacation, it makes me wanna wish i never have to go back to cebu. maybe it's the place, or the persons in it...but it's just not the same...and leaving bacolod makes me sad every single tym...
ok! enuf of the minidrama! i'm actually ecstatic that 'goongS' will be airing a few minutes from now. now i wudn't have to watch it online...whee~i'll be seeing se7en and shinhye more often now. also looking forward to 'bad family' on gma...and i'm just wondering when will abs air 'spring waltz'...i swear i've been waiting for it since last year...my mind is saturated with light and L at the moment, 'death note' rocks! if only i cud find a 'nana2' dvd right now, i'd be so friggin' happy...
aish, my mind is officially blank now...i'm afraid i am starting to get rusty at this -_-
手越祐也の彼女@7:45 PM
Welcome
you have stumbled upon my blog~ the chocoholic's refuge
feel free to wander around...
shout-outs are much appreciated :)
and one more thing,
this is my blog
if you don't like what you see
then GET LOST!
why are you here anyways?
>NewS 大好き!!!
>johnny depp
>tegoshi yuya ♥♥♥♥♥
>テゴマス最高!!!
>purple and green
>chocolates, coffee, cheese
>kpop, jpop, cpop, opm classics, oldies
>dramas/series
>horror flicks
>great danes, rottweilers, yorkies, dachshunds, schnauzers
>halloween & christmas
>eeyore & doraemon
>noona songs
>potatoes & buttered toast
>miniatures
>paper & pens
>susan baker tea
>my lola's leche flan
>sleep overs
>ice cream sandwiches
>tumblers & coasters
>pistachios
>purin
>okonomiyaki
>road trips
>picture books
>paisley & velvet
>candied fruits
>old wives' tales
>mang ambo by larry alcala
>pugad baboy by pmjr
>te-no-ma-shi
>jwebs
>RyoTego
>NewS' Never Ending Wonderful Story dvd
>G3-my partners in crime!
Hates
>worms, maggots, caterpillars, etc.
>rainy days and mondays
>math
>cigarette smoke
>fishbones
>frying fish
>household chores
>my sensitive nose -_-
>waiting
>traffic
>two-faced ppl
>spicy food
>clutter
>being pressured
>crappy service
>shopping
>crowded places
>directions
>too much drama
>sad endings
>monthly periods
>backlogging
>chain letters
>exclusivity and all that shit
>backbiters and rumor-mongers
>being binbou -_-
>my full name
>multi-tasking
>arguments
>my brother XP
>delusional fangirls
>unwanted admirers/suitors/textmates (GRRRR!)
>Tegoshi and RyoTego haters
>blondes
>rumors/tabloids
Wishlist
>'MEMOIRS' philippine release
>TegoMass concert dvd
>a Coraline doll
>harry potter and the deathly hallows
>a series of unfortunate events (complete)
>more neil gaiman books
>the adventures of tin-tin
>my own dika
>new celphone
>jenga and twister games
>revel bars!!! *drools*
>body shop's olive oil
>maltese or yorkie
>electronic dictionary
>the nightmare before christmas merchandise
>JE merchandise
>okaneeeeee~
>lose weight overnight
>mole under left eye
>learn how to play violin/cello
>learn how to bake
>bungee jump
>vacation to japan, thailand, korea
>go to a NewS concert
>my own tegoshi yuya XD
>more ryotego fics
>tegoshi singing nino's niji
>watch:
-itteQ-tegoshi eps
-massu's 'musashi'
-pi's 'byakkotai'
-ie ga tooi-news epi
-kei's high school musical
-kei's 'nurse aoi'
-kisarazu cat's eye
-princess d
+ the nightmare before christmas + harry potter + romeo and juliet + city of angels + now and then + moulin rouge + chocolat + from hell + the neverending story + the labyrinth + a walk to remember + the chocolate factory (willy wonka and charlie versions) + the secret garden + snow white: a tale of terror + great expectations + don juan de marco + napoleon dynamite + sleepover + sleepy hollow + centerstage + the sisterhood of the travelling pants + tuck everlasting + what a girl wants + casper + bourne identity + ocean's eleven + mr. bean + the abyss + deep blue sea + ghost ship + titanic + jurassic park (1,2&3) + resident evil (1,2&3) + the land of the dead + the dawn of the dead + ella enchanted + shrek (1,2&3) + face off + con air + the x-files + coach carter + time machine + the land before time + mulan + hocus pocus + interview with a vampire + practical magic + princess diaries + miss congeniality + queen of the damned + romeo must die + the others + thumbelina + ever after + breakfast at tiffany's + gone with the wind + west side story + bridget joneses diary (1&2) + brokedown palace + darkness falls + valentine + the exorcism of emily rose + witches + the count of monte cristo + shakespeare in love + love actually + the man in the iron mask + four weddings and a funeral + the island of dr. moreau + narnia: the lion, the with, and the wardrobe + the cube + the mummy (1&2) + identity + beetlejuice + frequency + phenomenon + the guru + stardust + pursuit of happyness + stardust + coraline + the lake house + the sorcerer's apprentice +
+ the twins effect + the death curse + hero + the house of flying daggers + crouching tiger, hidden dragon + the curse of the golden flower + infernal affairs (1,2&3) + my sassy girl + il mare + the classic + a millionaire's first love + kawi + koma + the uninvited + vacation (dbsk) + 200 pounds beauty + jenny&juno + one missed call (1,2&3) + the phone + the eye + a tale of two sisters + nana + death note1&2 + six + shutter + lovely complex + kanojo to no tadashii asobikata + chinese odyssey + protege de la rose noire + house of fury + spy dad + diva ah-hey + chinese tall story + new police story + 6AM + ab-normal beauty + battle royale + wishing stairs + the red shoes + shissou/dead run + one missed call 2 + attack on the pin-up boys (suju's movie) + cinderella ni naritai + boys love + kurosagi the movie + calling you + L change the world + koizora + crows zero + cyborg girl + tada, kimi wo aishiteru + 4bia/phobia + phobia 2 + coming soon + liar game: the final stage +
BOOKS
+ harry potter (j.k. rowling) + series of unfortunate events (lemony snickett) + stories of eva luna (isabel allende) + daddy long legs (jean webster) + behind the attic wall (sylvia cassedy) + how stella got her groove back (terry mcmillan) + pet sematary (stephen king) + stardust & coraline (neil gaiman) + robert fulghum books + roald dahl + frances hodgson burnett + grimm brothers + hans christian andersen + memeoirs of a teenage amnesia (gabrielle zevin +)
BOOB TUBE
+ csi las vegas + criminal minds + gilmore girls + supernatural + house m.d. + oprah + will and grace + extreme makeover (home edition) + charmed + joan of arcadia + dark angel + tru calling + angel + monk + the pretender + moonlight + i survived a japanese game show +
<3DRAMAS
+ beautiful days + love letter + winter sonata + my name is kim sam soon + my sassy girl chun-hyang + sweet 18 + meteor garden1&2 + dbsk's banjun drama + full house + goong + hana yori dango + bad family + nobuta wo produce + proposal daisakusen + kurosagi + my boss my hero + dragon zakura + hana yori dango2 + 1 litre of tears + 1 litre of tears sp + gachi baka + papa to musume no nanokakan + hanazakari no kimitachi e + himitsu no hanazono + tsubasa no oreta tenshitachi - season 1 + tsubasa no oreta tenshitachi - season 2 + tantei gakuen Q + liar game + shabake + sore wa totsuzen, arashi no you ni + sugata sanshirou + yukan club + deru toko demashou + lost time life (kei's episode) + waraeru koi wa shitakunai + anego + kakure karakuri + car radio ga owareba + last friends + absolute boyfriend + what's up, fox? + binbou danshi + 14 sai no haha + code blue + ryusei no kizuna + atashinchi no danshi + koishite akuma + buzzer beat + guests of room zero (koyama's & shige's episodes) + orthros no inu + you're beautiful + hidarime tantei eye + troubleman + sunao ni narenakute + loss time life + hyoten +
ANIME
+ fushigi yuugi + master of mosquiton + monster rancher + doraemon + fruits basket + trigun + sugar sugar rune + alice academy + cardcaptor sakura + time quest + ranma 1/2 + lovecom + gravitation + black blood brothers + ouran high host club + yamato nadeshiko shichi henge (the wallflower) + howl's moving castle + spirited away + kimi ni todoke +
UNFAITHFUL
+ chad michael murray + vincent kartheiser + jensen ackles + wentworth miller + james franco + sean faris + joseph fiennes + ewan mcgregor + ethan hawke + drew fuller + christopher gorham + channing tatum + liam aiken + topher grace + dhani lennevald + brad renfro + ralph fiennes + nicolas cage + jason statham + hugh jackman + diego luna + adam garcia + david duchovny + enrique iglesias + will estes + colin firth + dougray scott + antonio sabato jr. + alex o'loughlin + luke grimes +
++ jang woohyuk (h.o.t.) + micky yoochun (dbsk) + kim junghoon + jo insung + lee sangwoo + lee junki + kim jihoon + im joohwan + brian joo (ftts) + tablo (epik high) + t.o.p. (big bang) + attack (trax) + jin taehwa (battle) + kim dongwan (shinhwa) + park jinwoo + kim hyeseong + hyunbin + jang geunseok + wonbin (f.t island) + jung yonghwa (cnblue)
+++ tegoshi yuya + shun oguri + hongo kanata + news + kenichi matsuyama + ryo nishikido (news) + kazunari ninomiya (arashi) + matsuda shota + matsuda ryuhei + kaname jun + yamapi (news)+ tatsuya fujiwara + mizushima hiro + tsubasa imai (t&t) + wakaba ryuuya + hiraoka yuuta + tsukamoto takashi + tamayama tetsuji + yonemura daijiro & yodogawa yoshihiro (question?) + arioka daiki & yamada ryousuke (hey!say!) + ohkura tadayoshi (k8) + nakamaru yuichi (kat-tun) + oshinari shugo + tamaki hiroshi + mukai osamu + koide keisuke + miura haruma + seto koji + nakayama yuma + inohara yoshihiko (v6) +
++++ vanness wu (f4) + edison chen + jay chou + kenny kwan (boyz) + daniel wu + stephen fung + ananda everingham + golf + ray macdonald +
+++++ john lloyd cruz + jc de vera + enchong dee + hideaki torio +
LOVE THE MUSIC OF...
+ the corrs + sarah mclachlan + shawn colvin + michelle branch + selena + mariah carey + lee sooyoung + jewel + aaliyah + craig david + jason mraz + josh groban + boa + dbsk + lene marlin + frou frou + enya + leann rimes + big bang + sung sikyung + sg wannabe + se7en + epik high + clazziquai + loveholic + sugababes + all saints + lara fabian + gregorian chant + vonda shepard + foofighters + green day + rachael lampa + bosson + linda ronstadt + the cranberries + the cardigans + india arie + seal + george michael + lighthouse family + sting + garbage + dc talk + duncan sheik + coldplay + jars of clay + blur + third eye blind + john mayer + fiona apple + spice girls + kelly clarkson + utada hikaru + 'd sound + jim croce + david foster + eric clapton + boyz 2 men + babyface + alison krauss + richard marx + the company + jose mari chan + martine mccutcheon + kathy troccoli + jj lin + dream + honeyz + foj + darius + maksim + aaa + haley bennett + perfume + teddy geiger + yui + shimizu shota + kato miliyah + jyongri + coraline soundtrack +
BEAUTIES
+ nicole kidman + charlize theron + sandra bullock + anne hathaway + alexis bledel + evan rachel wood + amanda bynes + alexa vega + rachel mcadams + uma thurman + leelee sobieski + eliza dushku + emily browning + emma watson + dakota fanning + annasophia robb + alicia morton + kate maberly + mia maestro + jennifer connelly + paz vega + emmanuelle chriqui + hilary duff + marisa tomei + helena bonham carter + amber tamblyn + julia stiles + meredith bishop + thora birch + jessica alba + kristin kreuk + sara paxton + monica keena + katie holmes + marley shelton + camilla bell + angelina jolie + milla jovovich + amanda seyfried +
++ choi jiwoo + song hyegyo + jeon jihyun + son yehjin + goo hyejin + park shinhye + go ara + han jimin + lee yeonhee + bae seulgi (the reds) + ayumi (sugar) + song jihyo + yoon eunhye (baby vox) + han chaeyoung + kim taehee + han jihye + park bom + park heebon (milk) + kim bomi (milk) + chaeyeon + nam sangmi + cats + kara + lina and sunday (csjh) + sunye (wg) + kim ah-jung + uhm hyunkyung + yoo hyunyoung + choi sooyoung + han gain + kim junghwa + go eunah + goo hyesun + jung ryeowon (chakra) + kang junghwa + so yihyun + jo jungrin + kim ok-bin + eunseong + min seohyeon +
+++ nakashima mika + aoi miyazaki + horikita maki + toda erika + aragaki yui + shida mirai + uno misako + ueto aya + ueno juri + kashii yu + ito misaki + maya miki + ayase haruka + karina + narumi riko + kato rosa + naka riisa + esumi makiko + ito yuna + mimura + leah dizon + kiritani mirei + aoi yu +
++++ twins + miriam yeung + angelica lee + jolin tsai + rainie yang + niki chow + race wong + yumiko cheng + isabella leong + joey yung + stephy tang + janice wei vidal + vivian hsu +
+++++ maja salvador + erich gonzales + vaness del moral + jennica garcia +
♥♥♥♥♥
